I’ve been going through my books, notebooks, jottings, scribblings, etc.
Tucked into one journal was a print-out of the five Rs to a good day-end examen:
Relish the moments that went well and all of the gifts I have today.
Request the Spirit to lead me through my review of the day.
Review the day.
Repent of any mistakes or failures.
Resolve, in concrete ways, to live tomorrow well.
At the top, in my own handwriting, were a few musings:
–Have I loved my whole life wrong?
–Why did you pick me, Lord?
–When agitated: Now friend, we have made a misstep. Le us proceed more carefully.
A PATH IN THE WOODS
I don’t trust the truth of memories
because what leaves us
There’s only one current of this sacred river
but I still want to remain faithful
to my first astonishments
to recognize as wisdom the child’s wonder
and to carry in myself until the end a path
in the woods of my childhood
dappled with patches of sunlight
to search for it everywhere
in museums in the shade of churches
this path on which I ran unaware
toward my primary mysterious aloneness